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10 December 2014 @ 09:43 pm
I've been awful at keeping this journal updated. Big surprise. Work's still going okay, I can't believe we're quickly approaching the halfway point of my internship. Mostly I'm scared that they won't keep me on and I'll have to go back to job hunting. It's not that I think I'm doing bad, it's just... I'm not sure they're hiring, the economy being what it is, and despite their assurances that most of their interns will stay on, I can't help being pessimist. Going to send out a few CVs in the new year, just to be on the safe side.

I'm quickly turning into an old lady. I went to the Fiera in Milan this other weekend, same one I went to with my uni mates, and I was just so damn tired all the time. I remember five years ago we walked around for ages and I bought everything and the next day I went to class like it was no big deal. Now I mostly felt cranky and bothered by the crowd and my legs were sore and the next day it was a Sunday and I slept like a log until 2pm. I did get a cute new hat, though, so at least there's that.

For pie's sake, I'm wearing an undershirt because my stomach was cold. I haven't worn an undershirt since I was eight and under parental orders. I'm turning into my mother.

So anyway, the point of this post is that I'm a horrible person and my plan of reading a lot during my commute fell by the wayside, because I mostly SLEEP during my commute. Somewhat of a hazard but I haven't missed my stop yet. Or, well, just once, but that doesn't count. There's this reading challenge I've been doing since March, it's Avengers-themed and you have to read books that fulfill certain criteria to recruit heroes and defeat villains. You can see my progress here. I've still got three weeks left and 10 books to read, so I probably won't be able to recruit all heroes like I wanted, but I'd really like to try and get a few more.

Problem is that the heroes left are the ones with tricky books, the ones that I've spent months looking for but never quite found. So I figured that maybe you could give me a hand. This is what I have left:

  • Read a book with the US flag on the cover, or with a main character who is part of the military.

  • Read a book with a laser beam or rocket on the cover or with a character/ship using those weapons.

  • Read a book with a hammer/mace on the cover or where a major character carries a hammer or mace.

  • Read a book with a political leader (president, Queen, King etc.) on the cover or as the main protagonist.

  • Read a book with a character in a black suit on the cover or with a spy as the main protagonist.

  • Read a book by a russian author or with a russian main/side character.

  • Read a book with numbers on the cover or with a science centric plot.

  • Read a book with a skeleton on the cover or where a character sacrifices himself for love.

  • Read a book with a square or cube on the cover or where a character gets his powers from a non-human/alien artifact.

  • Read a book with a gauntlet on the cover (can be part of an armored character) or where an immortal character plays a significant role.


The only requirement is that the books have to be at least 100 pages long, and of course the shorter the better since I'd like to be able to cram a lot of books in the time I have left. For the items in italics I have already something in mind, but any suggestion would make me happy, because some of those... total blank! Laser beams? Hammers? Russian authors?? Help!
 
 
 
REN
Lunchtime rant. It's lunchtime and I'm sitting alone and I think I'll explode if I don't rant about how everyone sucks. Been a while since I posted, I've taken to ranting on Twitter because it's easier to just capslock at the screen, but this one doesn't exactly fit in 140 characters. And I don't think any of you deserve to hear this from me one-on-one, so.

Things about me:
1) I like maths.
2) I don't like stupidity.
3) People who don't get maths or think it's too difficult for them aren't stupid. Their teachers never explained things properly.
4) I'm taking yet another class on didactics this semester. (I don't want to be a teacher AT ALL but it's easy credits and I like learning about how people learn, if that makes sense.)
5) This fucking class is full of fucking stupid people who want to become teachers.

...You can probably guess where this is going.

Look, I get that the mantra of this class is that with teaching there isn't no 100% guaranteed best way of doing it. We're shown a lot of examples and we talk a lot and we look at studies and surveys, and we're supposed to think about it and have our own ideas. Like a very wise man once said, it's not rules, it's more like guidelines. And I'm not saying I'd be the best teacher ever, far from it, I'd be a terrible teacher for several reasons. But I'm pretty sure that out of all the people in my class I wouldn't be the worst teacher, and the idea that some of my classmates are going to become teachers and fuck up future generations is just. Urgh.

Case in point. We're all given mock answers from students and asked how we would grade them. Professor repeatedly states that there are no right or wrong answers, we're just going to discuss, blah blah. I get that. We're never going to agree on something so subjective as grades because, surprise!, even in maths grades are highly subjective and depend on the teacher. But. BUT. IF YOU THINK THAT THE BLATANTLY WRONG ANSWER, THE ONE WITH A BUNCH OF MISTAKES AND RANDOM PASSAGES THAT DON'T FOLLOW ANY KIND OF LOGIC, THE ANSWER THAT DOESN'T ANSWER THE QUESTION AT ALL, THE ANSWER WHERE THE STUDENT NOT ONLY WAS WRONG BUT YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT HE WAS TRYING TO DO, IF YOU THINK THAT ANSWER IS THE BEST ANSWER OF THE BUNCH BECAUSE IT USED X AND Y AND SO THERE WAS ~FORMALISM~ AND THEREFORE IT'S THE BEST AND IT'S AUTOMATICALLY BETTER THAN THE ANSWER GIVEN BY ANOTHER STUDENT, WHO USED SIMPLE WORDS AND NO FORMALISM BUT REACHED A CORRECT SOLUTION, IF YOU THINK FORMALISM TRUMPS HAVING THE RIGHT IDEAS, THEN, PLEASE, GET OUT. It's literally the opposite of what we're told every day in this class. And in all the other didactics classes, which I know you took. And it's a free country and you can take whichever classes you want, but the idea of you going out in the world to teach, to actually teach maths to poor hapless kids, so we'll have another generation of students who hate maths because it's complicated and you must have X and Y and use lots of difficult formulas because otherwise it's not right, because the teacher said so, it pisses me off so fucking much.

For bonus points. At the end of the lesson, asking the professor how he would have graded those answers, implying that his is the right answer, and the past two hours of discussion don't matter at all. You keep doing that. Why.
 
 
 
REN
  • idk I felt I haven't updated in ages. I'm still around, I've just been increasingly annoyed by LJ's new features, like why the fuck did they have to take away the old posting page. But I'm braving it to post fics and mixes, so I might as well try and update? I'm more active on Tumblr and Twitter lately anyway (as you know, Bob). And on Goodreads. I love having a Kindle, I've probably read more in the past two months than in the past two years.

  • Real life is, as usual, uneventful and boring. Started my last semester yesterday. I won't actually finish until next spring (if I pass all exams, if I get an internship for the last three credits, if I finish my thesis) but it's the last two courses I'll take. Ever. Uuurgh I can't wait to be done. Pls do not mention real life to me because giving out more details would be painful.

  • I got my hair cut yesterday, went to the Chinese hairdresser's for the first time. It's awesome and cheap and quick and cheap. Pony (aka scatteredintime for the uninitiated) asked me for pics, and I was like NO WAY because ew my face, but then she posted pics and I got jealous so here you go. Here I am baffling at how do I take pictures, here I figured it out, here I'm just being a cam whore and glorying on the fact that it's the one day of the year when I don't have a bad hair day. (Wow I look a lot like my sister from this angle.) As a bonus this is actually how I am in the evenings. Classy and sexy at the same time.

  • Uhm that's all. NO WAIT THAT'S NOT ALL. Meme. Stolen from koorime_yu, it's her birthday today! Whoo! Everyone give her well wishes and/or cake and/or strippers. So anyway, meme.
    Go to my fanfic archive and choose a sentence from one of my stories. Must be a whole sentence, not a fragment or a word of dialogue or stuff like that. I'll reply saying which story of mine I think that sentence is from. If I get it wrong, you get a drabble. (Unless I get distracted by the other stuff I have to write first.) (Ahem.)

    There's also stories on LJ or SSBB, I always forget what's posted where. Anyway.
 
 
 
REN
23 December 2012 @ 06:27 pm
I like presents, generally. I don't like getting presents for people. I can't wait until I'm old enough that I can give people money in an envelope and tell them to buy something they like. My biggest fear is that some friend will get me a present and force me to reciprocate. Birthdays are bad, but Christmas is the worst because it's all together, A TON OF PRESENTS ALL TOGETHER JFC HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO COPE. So I usually team up with my siblings and we get the presents for our parents, etc, together, this way we only need one brainwave. But we didn't know what to get for each other, so I was about to suggest let's not get each other presents this year, too much of a hassle, when my sister comes up all happy and tells me that she and my brother finally found presents for me. WEEPING. PANICKING. DENIAL. So I just spent the afternoon trying to find presents for them and I think I did it? I did not find the game my brother wanted bc it went out of print like ten years ago or smth so I got him a nerdy cookbook. Then weeping again because I found the very same thing that my sister wanted and couldn't find anywhere, the same thing I told her last week it was impossible to find. Now I just have to hope that nothing gets ~lost~ in the mail.

Oh and the other presents aren't even wrapped yet because nobody can be arsed. So much holiday spirit in the air in this house.
 
 
 
REN
So Peyton's been bothering me to update my LJ but I felt like RL was too boring and sad and derpy to talk about that and I've already got Tumblr for fandom squee. Which mostly equates to writing inane strings of letters in the tags of gifsets that give me feels, but still. Isa posted this meme thingy today and I thought YES GOOD SHE'S GOING TO TELL ME WHAT TO TALK ABOUT. And thus an update was born.

Comment to this post, and I will list seven things I want you to talk about. They might make sense or they might be totally random. Then post that list, with your commentary, to your journal.


7 questionsCollapse )


Oh, also before I forget, Teen Wolf has eaten my mind.


Come join beacon_hills, an interactive challenge comm for Teen Wolf. The very first Phase is starting soon STARTED A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO ACTUALLY and it'd be great fun to have some new member join in the fun.

There are two teams: team_argent and team_hale. They're both great teams, and which ever team you join EVEN THOUGH TEAM HALE IS TOTES THE BEST BECAUSE IT'S REN'S TEAM, you will be sure to have a great time competing.

Apply for a team and be sure to tell them I sent you.
 
 
 
REN
20 March 2012 @ 01:59 pm
Hi.  
I think an update on my life is long overdue because I don't even remember the last time I posted here. It's not really an OMGSTILLALIVE post because lol I'm stuck with my uni's crappy wifi rn that loads one page every 10 minutes, I'm supposed to be studying but I have no lessons and no willpower to do anything even remotely productive, think of it as me rising from the grave as an unquiet spirit to bother you with my incoherent wall of text. Or whatever.

♠ My course load this semester is... eh. I've had worse, but the timetable itself sucks. I get home at 9PM on Tuesdays and Thursdays because I have lots of free periods. And I told myself I'd be good and use this time to study, but who am I kidding, I always bring my laptop on Tuesdays and Thursdays. So it's like 40% study, 60% try to connect to the internets and waste time because I'm tired. And despite being tired I just can't go to sleep before midnight, and even when I do I end up tossing and turning in my bed until almost 2am. IDK why, I'm like BODY I WENT TO SLEEP EARLY FOR YOUR SAKE SO FALL ASLEEP ALREADY and my body's like LOL NOPE and my brain's like WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO REMIND YOU OF YOUR LIFE AND YOUR FUTURE SO YOU CAN WORRY AND NOT RELAX EVEN ONE BIT and then I'm dead in the morning. Though, afternoon naps? Feasible. Oversleeping? Hell yes. I just can't sleep when I should.

♠ The courses themselves would be interesting, if not for the teachers. I have functional analysis and geometry with two professors I already know from first year. They're not bad, but they talk too quickly and write things messily and I have a hard time keeping track of what's happening. I've been trying to keep up with at least geometry, but for every hour of lesson I'd need two hours to understand my scribbles. Most likely I'll end up studying on the online pdfs, which look neat and ordered but aren't as in-depth as the lessons. Then I've got yet another course with the same dumb professor that drove me crazy last semester because she talks slooow and dumbs down everything to high school level. Yeah, there's this trend of either too easy or too hard, idk. But I like the subject. I think from next week I'm going to skip every other lecture because the dumb is killing me. Plus I have the course that's crazy late in the evening and I can't even skip because attendance is mandatory, but it's game theory and I love it. The only problem is that it's for all students, not just mathematicians, so everything's dumbed down and we waste forever on stuff like DO YOU KNOW HOW TO CALCULATE THE AVERAGE BETWEEN TWO NUMBERS? DO YOU KNOW HOW TO CALCULATE A WEIGHTED AVERAGE? and blah. This scary amount of maths drove away most non-mathematicians anyway, so last week the level improved a bit. Here's to hoping it'll get even more interesting. Because rn I've been entertaining myself by thinking up elaborate fandom scenarios for all the examples.

♠ THERE WAS THIS ONE EXAMPLE CALLED THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES. I TOTALLY RENAMED IT AS THE BATTLE OF THE REMOTE CONTROL BECAUSE ALL OF THIS PROFESSOR'S EXAMPLES ARE SEXIST AS FUCK, SHE EVEN COMMENTED ON IT AND I WAS LIKE "Y U NO FIX THIS" BUT APPARENTLY LOL NO, WE NEED TO HAVE THE BOY WHO WANTS TO GO TO A FOOTBALL MATCH AND THE GIRL WHO WANTS TO GO TO THE CINEMA TO WATCH SOME ROMANTIC CRAP. SO I CHANGED IT TO CAP WANTS TO WATCH CSI AND IRON MAN WANTS TO WATCH GREY'S WHICH IS 1) CANON, 2) WAY MORE AWESOME, 3) IT WAS 7PM AND MY SANITY WAS GONE. MY NOTES FOR THIS COURSE = FOREVER THE BEST.

♠ SHE DIDN'T TELL US THE STORY OF THE PRISONER'S DILEMMA BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOWS IT AND IT'S EVEN IN MOVIES AND TV SHOWS AND STUFF. :| I AM DISAPPOINT ALSO BECAUSE IN MOVIES AND TV SHOWS PEOPLE WHO TEACH GAME THEORY ARE MORE AWESOME THAN HER. HOLLYWOOD LIED TO ME. SO I DECIDED THAT THE PRISONER'S DILEMMA IS THE STORY OF BELLE AND RUMPELSTILTSKIN IN OUAT. IT ENDS BAD BECAUSE IT'S A NASH EQUILIBRIUM LOL IT COULDN'T HAVE GONE ANY OTHER WAY BECAUSE RUMPLY IS SMART. BEST NOTES EVER, I TELL YOU.

♠ Aside from my very exciting courses, my life is... er... non-existent? I just don't have time to do anything, it seems. It's my birthday in one week though, maybe I could muster some strength and guilt-trip my sister into taking me shopping because I haaate shopping and I'll never go on my own but I really need a new pair of jeans. And shoes because I'm still pretending that it's winter but really it's not but ugh new shoes are the worst. Can I be 4yo again and have my mum do all my shopping for me?

So, by the way, I typed this before lunch and had to wait to post because did I mention that the wifi here sucks. And now I have to wait until 5pm to go to lesson and turn game theory into epic adventures of fictional characters. Woe.
 
 
 
REN
26 February 2012 @ 07:16 pm
@Yu, Chibi, Nee: giovedì 1 marzo alle 9 circa andava bene a tutte. \o/ Estendo l'invito a chiunque voglia accodarsi.

STAR TREK (2009)


THURSDAY, MARCH 1ST


8PM UTC


JOIN US? THERE'S GOING TO BE A CHATROOM AND (AT LEAST) FOUR ITALIAN FANGIRLS DISCUSSING THE MERITS OF THIS GREAT MASTERPIECE OF INTERGALACTIC CINEMATOGRAPHY AND STUFF BLOWING UP AND TIME TRAVEL AND LIVE LONG AND PROSPER.

I CAN PROBABLY FIND YOU DOWNLOAD LINKS IF YOU ARE IN NEED OF THEM.


Since everyone and their goldfish knows that Benny is in the next Star Trek film. Also did I just attempt to type it as Stark Trek. Tonyyy!
 
 
 
REN
Dato che io mi muovo rapidamente solo quando c'è da organizzare vaccate. Sento il bisogno impellente di riguardare Star Trek (XI) ~because of reasons~ e le nuove foto del set non aiutano. Quindi, donne, ditemi una data in cui possiamo rimirarlo tutte insieme. Chibi non può prima di mercoledì, quindi facciamo la prima settimana di marzo? Per l'orario diciamo indicativamente verso le 9 di sera (anche se si sa che poi si inizia tardi).

QUANDO?

giovedì 1
2(10.5%)
venerdì 2
2(10.5%)
sabato 3
2(10.5%)
domenica 4
2(10.5%)
lunedì 5
1(5.3%)
martedì 6
1(5.3%)
mercoledì 7
1(5.3%)
altra data
0(0.0%)
Stryker merda
3(15.8%)
tè e biscotti
5(26.3%)
 
 
 
REN
I've been the worst person ever lately, I kept meaning to update but never did because my life seems boring and who would want to hear about me anyway. It's an awkward period anyway. Not... sure what's happening, it's like I've started hanging out with a new group of people and I don't know them very well so I'm on the sidelines but it's fun, but then I get distracted and forget about old friends. Urgh. Self, you suck at Friendship 101. Maybe the pony cartoon can actually teach me something, haha.

(Also, much hate for people who call when I'm in my room and the phone is two floors down, and it stops ringing before I can get to it. Srsly, if it's not important and you can't even wait one minute for me to get my ass downstairs, why bother in the first place.)

Exam yesterday. I'm crossing all my fingers that it went well, and it's killing me that I have no idea how I did because it was such a random exam, more like philosophy than maths. I did answer all questions, though, so I'm hoping I did well and I can get results soon and put this course behind me. I'm really disappointed because I thought it would teach me how to teach maths, I've tutored a couple of kids in the past (with mixed results) and even though I'm not considering teaching as a career I would have liked to learn more about teaching, and how to better explain maths to kids, and so on. Instead I got a load of bullshit about alternative teaching methods based on group work and how it's so important to develop social skills along with numerical skills. Which, tbh, I don't give a crap about, I like maths because it doesn't require social skills. Also I think all those ~alternative methods are flawed because they're written from the perspective of 60-smth professors who are way out of touch with the way kids think. Some of the tips are ridic, there's a part that says: "If a shy student is having troubles working with his group, you should approach them and give them tips on how to proceed, speaking quietly so that only they can hear, as if you were their accomplice. This will help create a friendly bond between teacher and student." I am headdesking because if it had happened to me I would have 1) died of embarrassment, 2) been mocked as a teacher's pet by the group I was working with, 3) hated that teacher forever. So yeah, really hoping I didn't flunk this one because I'd hate to waste more time on this psychology crap. (I mean no offense to those who study psychology for realz, but this course is ridic and not at all my cup of tea.)

SPEAKING OF WHICH, I WILL NOW MAKE TEA AND MY MOOD WILL IMPROVE. Because I'm still in a slump after watching XMFC with the clawsies, I couldn't sleep until 4am and I kept thinking about Charles and Erik's troubled love and urgh. Feelings.
 
 
 
REN
07 February 2012 @ 10:39 am
So internet is back. And I'm going crazy running up and down and trying to do seven things at once. So much for my vow to study allll day long today. (It's a stupid subject anyway.) PEYTON I AM COMING FOR YOU!